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Name: Denize
Birthday: 8/15/1991
Gender: Female
Interests:  Anime, Manga, RPG's, Basketball, Art, JE, JDrama, JMusic, SM, KDrama, KMusic
Occupation: Student/Dreamer/Gamer/Otaku
Message: message meEmail: email me
MSN: loveandpeace118@hotmail.com
Yahoo:  denikillon@yahoo.com
Member Since:
1/19/2006
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| The HSC examination timetable is finally out! Year 12 students across Australia have begun to countdown to the end of their lives. Hahaha~ T_T;;
[Saturday] August 29;
9.00-4.00am - Japanese Continuers Oral Examination
[Wednesday] October 21;
9.20-11.30am - English (Paper 1; Area of Study)
[Thursday] October 22;
9.25-12.30pm - Information Processes and Technology
[Friday] October 23;
9.25-11.30am - English (Paper 2; Modules)
[Monday] October 26;
9.25-12.00pm - General Mathematics
[Thursday] October 29;
9.25-12.30 - Biology
2.00-5.00 - Japanese Continuers
The countdown clock at the top of my xanga counts down to October 21, to when the written examinations begin. *sigh* I don't like the fact that my first four exams come on consecutive schooldays! And I HATE the fact I have Biology and then Japanese just an hour and a half apart! I am going to die! *sigh* Oh well, I guess it's better to get them all over and done with. Besides, getting them done means more HOLIDAY TIME for ME & HONEY KO! ^0^ Speaking of which, yesterday marked our 1 year and 4 months! Honey Ko, if you're reading this, MAHAL NA MAHAL KITA! Mish u sho much! Mwahhh~
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| PARA SA ASAWA KO SA ARAW NG BIRTHDAY NYA,
HAPPY 19th
BIRTHDAY
Bawat araw na lumilipas, mas lalo natin nakikilala yung isa't-isa. Habang tumatanda tayong dalawa, mas lalo tayong nahuhulog sa isa't-isa. Bilang mag asawa Hon, hinding hindi mag babago yun! Buong buhay tayong mag mamahalan ng ganito! Lilipas yung 30th birthday natin, 40th birthday, 50th... Tatanda tayong mag kasama. Tatanda tayong minamahal yung isa't-isa, di ba Hon? n_n
Sana masaya ka sa araw na 'to Hon! Alam ko for the last week, malungkot ka, maraming kang iniisip. Pero sana ngaun sa araw ng birthday mo maging maligaya ka na ulit! Nalulungkot ako pag nakikita kong naka simangot ka. Nalulungkot ako pag alam kong malungkot ka. That's why I did what I did! And masayang-masaya ako dahil umuwi na uli si Mama! Masayang-masaya ako 'cause nag kaayos na kayo! But most importantly, masayang-masaya ako dahil masaya na uli asawa ko~!
Sana palagi kanang masaya Hon! Sana itong year na 'to is masaya para sayo! Sana lahat ng wishes mo matupad! Sana hindi kana uli maging malungkot tulad ng mga nakaraang araw...
I'm sorry dahil wala ako dyan para i-celebrate yung birthday mo this year Hon. Pero promise, next year sa birthday mo mag ce-celebrate tayong mag kasama! And kakantahan kita ng "Happy Birthday"~ Babalikan kita Hon! Promise yan di ba? Ngaung November mag kakasama na uli tayong dalawa. Kaya huwag kang susuko, ok? Mag asawa na tayo! And that means Til Death Do Us Part...
Happy Birthday uli Honey kong pinaka pogi sa buong mundo. Mahal na mahal kita! Mish u sho much! Mwahhh~
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| Guess who's back? ME!! (^0^) Geez it's been a while since I last blogged. I realize I haven't blogged since February 1, which is almost an entire month ago! There's a lot I have to catch-up on here in this blog - like the other day, I changed all my bedsheets all by myself! It was the most satisfying feeling of my life! And to be quite honest, as I was tucking in the fitted sheet around the mattress of my bed, I kept thinking "one day, I'll be living in the same house as my Honey, and I'll be changing the bedsheets on our bed.. and taking care of our kids.. and cooking our meals.." It was a pretty random thought, but it made me smile. I know a lot of my friends will probably read this and think "OMG SHE WANTS TO GET MARRIED?!" but quite honestly, unlike those people I know who are so against marriage and long-term relationships, I'm not afraid of commitment.  Random pig animation, deal with it! I think it's cute. Hahaha~ Anyway, it's time for my message for my boyfriend/honey/bestfriend/betterhalf/husband~ YAY! P.S - If you don't like my new layout/theme, deal with it! I was dying of loneliness from missing my Dexter Hon too much so I played around with our old photos...
Honey Ko, hindi ko alam paano ko dapat simulan 'tong message ko para sa'yo, so I'll just start with whatever is on my mind...I know, ang laki talaga ng kasalanan ko sa'yo last month Hon. Naging monster ako... naging sinungaling ako... naging pabaya ako... I want you to know, nag sisisi na talaga ako.. Hon, kung pwede ko lang i-rewind ung panahon, gagawin ko para lang mapigilan lahat ng nangyari last month.. Sorry dahil sa malaking pag kakamali ko sa'yo Hon! Sorry dahil sinaktan kita ng husto. Sorry dahil pinaiyak kita. Sorry dahil na-break ko ung mga promises ko sa'yo . . . Pero maraming maraming salamat dahil hindi mo hinayaang matuldokan ung relationship natin. Maraming maraming salamat dahil pinatawad mo ako. Maraming maraming salamat dahil hangang ngayon minamahal mo parin ako ng todo! Alam kong natatakot ka and nag papanic nanaman 'cause Monday bukas - may pasok ako - and siguradong nandun si Kris and baka kausapin nya ako. Hon, promise ko sa'yo, end na talaga un! I will never give him the chance para kausapin ako uli... Hon, wala akong time para sa mga taong gustong manira sa atin. People should just be happy para sa atin, di ba? Hindi sila dapat umepal. And ung mga umeepal is worst than trash dahil wala silang respect para sa pag mamahalan natin!
I'm back now
Hon. Don't be afraid, ok? Promise talaga Hon, hinding hindi mauulit ung
nangyari last month. Never akong magiging monster ulit. Never akong mag
sisinungaling sa'yo or mag tatago ng secret. Bumalik na ako sa dating
Denize, Hon. All na nasa puso't isip ko ngayon is ikaw~ Promise, hindi
ka mag sisisi dahil binigyan mo uli ako ng chance. Hinding hindi ko
sasayangin ung chance na un! Magiging masaya na ta'yo Hon! Na na away. Na na iyak. Na na secret. Na na iwanan. Mahal na mahal talaga kita Honey Ko. Habang buhay ta'yong mag mamahalan di ba? Mag papakasal ta'yo~ And mag bubuo ta'yo ng isang masayang masaya family! (Di ba may 3 kids na nga ta'yo! Si Dillon, Berryl and Drenz! Haha~ LOL) And hindi na ta'yo mag hihiwalay ulit! Sa isang bahay, tatanda ta'yong mag kasama... di ba Hon?
Til Death Do Us Part Honey Ko.
01now&forever.
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| Today marks 1 year and 1 month since Dexter "officially" became my boyfriend. Looking back now, we've experienced so much in that short period of time that it actually feels as if we've been together for much longer than just a year and a month.
Like all normal couples, we went through ups and downs. There were misunderstandings and times when we fought; sometimes over really important issues and other times over something stupid and childish. In a year and a month; we've experienced the loneliness of being separated by miles of ocean; we've experienced being the "hot topic" for everyone in the neighbourhood to gossip about; we've experienced being haunted by the past; we've experienced friends telling us we didn't suit each other and family members doing the same; we've experienced birthdays, Valentines' Day and Monthsaries alone...
... But regardless of all that, we stuck together through thick and thin.
Honey Ko,
!!HAPPY 1 YEAR AND 1 MONTH ANNIVERSARY!!
Alam mo Hon, hangang ngayon hindi parin ako makapaniwala na boyfriend na kita. It feels like kahapon lang, tinatago ko pa crush ko sayo! Haha~ But in actual fact, isang taon at isang buan na tayong nag mamahalan...
Sa loob ng isang taon at isang buan, marami tayong na-experience. Maraming trials na dumating and it seemed like palagi nalang may bagong reason kung ba't nagiging mas complicated relationship natin. Pero kahit ganun Hon, hindi ka sumuko. Kahit na ang hirap ng sitwasyon natin, hindi mo ako iniwan and minahal mo parin ako ng todo-todo. And for that, thankful talaga ako.
"You are my LIFE, my LOVE, my HAPPINESS, my EVERYTHING" ... Palagi kong sinasabi yun. Corny, alam ko. Pero sana alam mo na totoo lahat yun. Mahal na mahal talaga kita Honey Ko. Ikaw ang buhay ko, mahal ko, kaligayahan ko at lahat-lahat sa mundo ko. (Does that make sense? LOL) Hon, promise pag uwi ko ulit, hindi na natin ma-raramdaman uli yung sakit at lungkot na na-raramdaman natin sa araw ng pag alis ko, dahil hinding-hindi ako papayag na umalis uli sa tabi mo.
Dexter B. Gagante, I love you.
Mahal na mahal kita. Je'taime.
Saranghae. Wo Ai Ni. Aishiteru. (Courtesy of Lux) (Smiling for the camera but dying slowly inside... My flight back to Sydney was a couple of hours after this was taken) | | |
| Well, the first month of 2009 is finally coming to an end and WOW this is my first blog since the day before I left for the Philippines. Haha~ In my last entry I even said "I'll try to blog as much as I can when I'm in the Philippines" ... Looks like that didn't work out quite as well as I had hoped.
For me, 2008 was a year of CHANGE. A lot of things happened that I thought would never happen to me. A lot of friends I lost that I thought would be with me until I'm old and gray. A lot of things I've learned that I thought I wouldn't. 2008 was a really up and down kind of year for me and looking back now, I'm so glad it's over.
Last year was Year 11, I was lucky to have survived. I didn't study. Didn't have a care for school. The only reason I attended was because I felt obligated to. I had no motivation for school last year, and the fact that I was having issues with a some people there didn't help at all!
Last year, I lost a lot of people who used to play significant roles in my life. I lost family members who used to be like guardians to me. I guess as time drifts by, people just grow apart. It's a natural part of life, right? I also grew apart from my best friend, whom I've known since Kindergarten. It's strange 'cause we always expected to graduate Year 12 and go to UNI still being close friends... But I guess it wasn't meant to be that way. And maybe it's my own fault for making things the way they are now, but there's no point having regrets. No matter how hard I think "I wish I just hadn't..." it's not going to erase what I did or take back what I said or change the decisions I made.
But 2008 wasn't all a big loss. I gained a lot of things too. There's a sense of maturity and confidence that I have now, that I never had before last year. There's a sense of great responsibility that I have now, that I never had before last year. I feel like I've grown up a lot thanks to all the things that I experienced in 2008. I have a whole new outlook on life, on school... on my future.
2008 saw the end to my 12 year long best friend relationship, but regardless of that loss, I found a best friend in Dexter. My boyfriend. The most supportive boyfriend I could ever ask for. He was there everytime I had something to cry about. Every moment of stress, of frustration, of loneliness, he was there. And it almost felt like we weren't separated by a 7 hour flight at all. It almost felt like he was right beside me, telling me to stop crying and things were gonna be okay.
When I went back to the Philippines to spend the Christmas/New Year holidays with family and friends over there. Things became complicated for Dexter and I because of gossipmongers telling my Mum and Grandparents this and that about our relationship. There were even times, that in a drunken state, my Grandpa yelled accusing and offensive things to Dexter right in front of my house. But he didn't give up on me. And for every tear I cried and every apology I made, he told me it was nothing that he loved me. Being the way he is, Dexter gives me courage and hope. It sounds weird, but it's true...
2009 is going to be one heck of a year. The HSC is inching closer with every blink of an eye. Year 12 graduation is only a couple of months away. This year is going to be the worst nightmare to many people I know, including myself. But it's the last year of high school... might as well make it worth it.
I hope you all had a FANTASTIC Christmas/New Year holiday!
I hope 2009 is a good year for everyone!
PEACE! v(^0^)v Denize out!!
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